You know, overall I'm pleased with the direction my style is going in. I've been working hard to get a less obviously anime informed style, certainly not straight anime, because while there is certainly nothing wrong with japanese cartoons, EVERYONE is drawing that way these days and if you aren't original then you aren't really marketable, which means you don't sell anything which means you don't eat.
Besides which, so many 14 year old fangirls are pumping out such a quantity of manga (and I should know, I was one of them) that most people probably outside Japan probably don't consider it a really 'serious' style, which blah blah work blah difficult etc.
The point here is that I've really been working hard for years now to start modifying my style, to bring it away from obviously Japanese more and into something more me, no matter what I'm doing, and overall I'm satisfied with how it's turning out, even if I still have a lifetime of work of learning and refining left to go. But then, when I'm sitting there fairly content with how my style is looking, considering I need to learn more shading and anatomy and environments and practice practice everything and learn watercolors and all the other 80000 things I really should be doing, sometimes I'll find a picture, and it will be anime, and it will be simple, but it will be well drawn and and it will have the most gorgeous pair of eyes.
And I miss it.
I see those pictures and I always just want to take up my pencil and draw and draw and draw and try to learn how to do that perfect pair of eyes, but they're always so very anime and the more you practice something, the more you swing in that direction, so I really shouldn't - I'd be sacrificing so much work put into trying to do something DIFFERENT if I did it now.
But oh those eyes.